Life Continues On...........

This past weekend Keadan and I went to Pine Cove with the new church that we have been going to. I am so glad that we decided to go, we have been debating to fully commit to a church and this did it. I love meeting new people even though I get completely nervous about it. I turn into a complete girl about it..."Will they like me, should I say this or that...etc." I really did not think these things with them. All the girls I stayed with were amazing! They were nice and not judgmental at all. It was a blasty blast. It almost felt like I had none them for a long time and we were just hanging out together. 

Saturday night we had a camp fire with the nine of us and talked about some cool eye opening things. Normally when I am in a group of people I get scared to talk, mainly because I slur my words and say things weird. But I think I did just fine, mainly because it was dark and no one could see me. (Haha) We started talking about testimonies and wether or not people should share them to others. It boiled down to Yes! Which I agree, but...I do think that people should tell their testimony when they are ready. At least that is what I want to do. I have given my testimony twice since I have become a christian. I think both times I was overwhelmed and I do not think that I was ready. I know that my story will keep being created but I do not think that I have the right words to share just yet. I know that it is getting there but it is not what I want yet. I think that the reason we tell our testimonies is because we are trying to witness to others but also to share our walk with other Christians. I think that is helps with the realization that others have dealt with the same internal battles. Which here lately I have dealt with many. Anyways it was a good talk between all of us!

This is going a little further back with my internal battles. I have really been missing my dad lately and not even 4 months after he passed away, my grandpa died also from cancer. I had to relive everything that happened in October. I have been dealing my Christian faith because of this. I was searching for an answer, which I have yet to find. The good news is that I am not angry anymore of these things that have happened, which I feel so great about. I was struggling with it a lot! Some days I could not even get out of bed. So I feel that I am taking it one step at a time!!!